About Me

Chandler, Arizona, United States
A Navy veteran, born and raised in California, I traveled throughout Southeast Asia, serving in Japan on the USS Jupiter AVS8 and on the USS Kitty Hawk CVA63, during the Vietnam War (two tours, including the first Carrier stationed off the coast of Vietnam) receiving Vietnam and National Defense Service Medals. Upon returning to CA., I earned a BA and MA in Psychology from California State University, Sacramento. As VP of Sales of Standard Brands Paint, where I worked for many years, I designed and gave sales and management seminars and wrote my company’s ethics and business manual. Drunken Duck is my first novel.

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

On Writing

Although first published on Feb. 28, 2011, I started writing Drunken Duck in August, 2008. My original intention was to write a Trilogy, Drunken Duck (1945-1966), Eyes of Redemption (1967-1988), and  Freshly Cut Flowers (1989-2010). I thought I would have the Trilogy finished in 2010, delusions of grandeur running through my wee-brain. I'm somewhat pleased, although not entirely with Drunken Duck (I would edit better and change much if I had to do it over again) but further attempts at writing the next two parts of my Trilogy is becoming difficult . . . if not impossible.

I'm sitting here wondering if I have the energy as any non-fictional motivation seems to have disappeared into the far away land of fictional desire that once existed, for me, as real. I started on both the second and third parts of the Trilogy many times and keep getting nowhere. Not exactly writer's block more like a deep melancholia, perhaps old age setting in or taking over accompanied by a shallow questioning whether or not I have an interesting story to tell  or if there is, metaphorically writing, any high octane left in me or my writer's tank.

Inexplicably, since I wrote the haiku "Exclamations!" on May 1st  I have to admit any motivation for further writing has left me completely now, as nothingness seems to have invaded my very being. Why so? The answer is a mystery perhaps to be explored when my unwritten life's novel is written in Purgatory.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

On Writing Style and Suicide


I found a web site sometime back that does an analysis of writing style and after submitting a few paragraphs the analysis was that I wrote in a similar style to that of David Foster Wallace. Wallace's writings are often concentrated around irony and I thought, wow, this analysis thing is ironically spot-on. Wallace's first novel, 1987's The Broom of the System garnered national attention and critical praise. James of The New York Times called his work a successful "manic, human, flawed extravaganza emerging straight from the excessive tradition of Elkin's Franchiser, Pynchon's V, and Irving's World According to Garp." I would love to be able to write as these writers including, Wallace . . . wishful thinking on my part. Wallace committed suicide by hanging himself at the age of 46. I would never commit suicide unless I became painfully ill or was to lose my faculties and today I reached the grand age of 67.

Monday, May 7, 2012

Vision of Eve (Revised)


A Vision of Eve is a very short story of human history told to R. E. Dawson by P.F. Harrington  when they were only eleven-years old (1956).

As remembered . . . envisioning . . . the golden Goddess Eve, naked, hidden in the dark foliage of the Garden of Eden, the ghost heard her heartbeat, three heartbeats as he searched for her in the shadowy darkness. Suddenly, a bright piecing light shown from the Heavens bathing her and the beginning of the birth of Adam’s sons in a halo of light, God’s gift to mankind, bringing woman out of the shadow of darkness into the light—God’s mistake.
Adam and Eve, Danny C. Sillada


The ghost saw the two boys, twins, within Eve start to emerge from her sacred space. Jealous, envious, enraged by what the light revealed, lusting after Eve, dreaming of her giving him the apple as he fondles her breast, needing her for himself, wanting his own offspring to rule the world, and worship him, foolishly the ghost flung a bolt of lightning from his hiding place, behind the Tree of Knowledge full of monkeys. Piercing her through the heart, killing Eve, the lightning bolt spread throughout her body, destroying her sacred place, burning her sons into cinders, ashes, into dust before they could fully emerge from her womb.

Humankind destroyed, Adam wept, the monkeys were overjoyed, the snake smiled if only for a moment, and the ghost came from behind the tree. Guiltily, not really, he put a fig leaf over Eve’s sacred space, stole the apple from Eve’s smoldering hand, took a bite from the forbidden fruit, chopping the snake in half, after-all only a mealy-worm, giggled, lied when he said, “yummy” because in discovering “the Truth” he could no longer taste, smell, see, hear, or feel. Bereft of his senses, devoid of feeling, he had the gift of knowing instead—nothingness.

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Monday, April 30, 2012

On Writing and Haiku


"An old silent pond...
A frog jumps into the pond,
splash! Silence again."
by Basho (1644-1694)


I stand on the back of Basho for my not so Extemporaneous Haiku.


An old silent lake ...
A writer of love despairs,
splash! Quiet follows.

By Ronald Dawson (1945-who in the hell knows)

Saturday, April 28, 2012

On Writing, Risk, Love, Joy, and Ecstasy

Anais Nin
Quotes by Anais Nin:

"If you do not breathe through writing, if you do not cry out in writing, or sing in writing, then don't write, because our culture has no use for it."

"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."

"I will not be just a tourist in the world of images, just watching images passing by which I cannot live in, make love to, possess as permanent sources of joy and ecstasy." 
  

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Old Dogs (Revised)





I tried many times to begin a new novel, yet I feel a complete lack of motivation for writing fiction, afraid of writing a non-fiction that may reveal my 'real self' being overwhelmed in the fluidity of an obnoxious self-indulgent weird depressive state, better put as a "who-cares-old-dog" mentality. I rant about politics, lying politicians, and people in general, along with other nonsensical life debates, having little use for the illusion of what others deem thoughtful considerations. A loss of the need for writing corresponds with my banal pursuit of meaning which is more like a game of triviality rather than any pursuit of knowledge. Then memories catch up with the ache in my loins -- a Biblical reference, surely -- and a multitude of memories leap into my brain screaming at me to quit complaining as I'm one lucky-old-dog to still be aching or breathing for that matter.

Friday, April 6, 2012

If not a Chinese Cook Book, what is Drunken Duck about?

Drunken Duck is available in E-book, paperback, and hardbound. Carriers include: Itunes (for Iphones, Ipads, Ipods), Barns & Noble, Amazon's Kindle for $2.99USD and AmazonUK for £2.09. The novel in paperback or hard cover can be ordered or instantly downloaded in E-book and PDF and Kindle formats from BookLocker.com 


The story of an Irish-American Catholic boy growing up in Sacramento, California, Drunken Duck explores the complexity of human relationships set against a number of unforgettable backdrops.

A coming-of-age novel that takes the Reader back into the 1950s and 60s, culminating with the first stages of America's involvement in the Vietnam War, Drunken Duck is told with an acceptance of the human condition, a wee-bit of humor, and a sometimes-chilling stoicism.

Living in the tough, predominantly Mexican-American, yet ethnically diverse Alkali Flats neighborhood of Sacramento, Patrick Francis Harrington, just Paddy to his “forever friends,” is a complex little boy, wise beyond his years. Characterized by retribution and redemption, and a continuous struggle with God, his family, a nun at school, and within his neighborhood surroundings, Paddy seeks out and finds love and acceptance from an eclectic group of people, in a world often filled with hypocrisy, racism, drunkenness, violence, and death. A stranger to himself, a boy with a self-confessed half-a-heart and fragmented soul, he nevertheless has the 'gift-of-knowing' as he looks into the eyes of others and sees beyond the ‘identification of differences’ and critical judgments made about color, ethnicity, and outward appearance, to the inner being; the hopes and fears, of the ‘other.’

Later in life, as a Navy SEAL, he travels to Japan and throughout Southeast Asia, including the Philippines, Vietnam, Hong Kong, and Singapore. His childhood experiences of love and loss are mirrored reflections of the passionate sex he shares with the women he loves, and the bloody confrontations he shares, in duels to the death, with a relentless enemy.

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

2046 . . . The Movie

"All Memories Are Traces of Tears"
Zhang Ziyi in
Memoirs of a Geshia
Just viewed this movie for the second time and loved it even more. This surrealistic film is about a writer (often a not so loveable rouge) and his 'loves.' He thinks he writes about the future but it really is the past and more importantly about the timing of love as being either to soon, to late, or tragically only one-sided. A mysterious train leaves for 2046  (room 2046 in the Oriental Hotel in Hong Kong), every so often and everyone who goes there has the same intention--to recapture their lost memories. I love foreign films my only concern is what I miss in the translation, however, in 2046  the incredible acting, the facial expressiveness, body language, and emotions so raw, that what the performers are conveying to the audience are made clear without words, especially in the case of Zhang Ziyi who breaks my heart as she plays Bai Ling a beautiful cabaret girl who lived in room 2046 and a lover of Chow Mo-wan played by Tony Leung. However, I can say unequivocally that aside from Tony Leung's masterful performance 2046 is the perfect vehicle for the greatest and dare I say in my opinion the most beautiful Chinese actresses of today including the aforementioned Zhang Ziyi,  Carina Lau, Wang Faye, Maggie Cheung, and Gong Li.

Monday, March 12, 2012

Being Screwed (Revised)

The collateral damage of war including rape, murder, devastation, and the displacement of possibly millions of people is never fully appreciated in the equation of defending freedom if that is our claim. Just a note: The recent headlines are of the ten thousand that have died in Syria but, hardly a word about the tens of thousands in Africa and other areas that have been, and are still being, slaughtered. Perhaps we should examine the motivation of outrage we feel for the people in Syria and not the many others . . . especially in the news.
 
We meddle in affairs we should not, such as the so-called Arab Spring, or participate in Vietnam type wars we cannot win, or try using our power for nation-building, not only from greed, but often as not, from simple stupidity. Never learning from our history we see this stupidity at its hyperbolic best in the methodology used by politicians in saber rattling i.e., McCain wanting to aide the Syrians militarily and the continuing war in Afghanistan. Republican or Democrat,  the inane decisions, I would say bankrupting idiocy, of the present administration and our congressional leaders in continuing them is absurd. Notice how condescending the political elite treat "the people" or as our elected officials sneeringly think-of-it, "the weak-minded people"  in regards to these Internationale situations . . . perhaps domestic ones, as well. Think of the recent little quiet moment caught on open-mike between Obama and Medvedev . . . in essence, after the weak-minded little people vote in November then they can do what is best . . . wink -wink. Rationalize the incident or try to explain it as you will, it's disgusting back-room politics at best and treason at worst.

With a corruption defended by winks, kickbacks, bribes, and rationalizations, many politicians lie and cheat to get elected, then they write tax policy (steal) and spend (redistribute) the money earned by the labor of others (the 50% who actually pay taxes) as if it were their own and they toss "the people" the crumbs left over and want us to kiss their ass for the privilege of paying off their families, friends, and easily corrupted followers. All involved in these deceptions of themselves and others claim the Justice of their Cause and want to make their often dishonest unexamined positions "the peoples" own . . . the illusion of a Republic. Those involved in this illusion, and the carrying out of these wars, from leader to those who follow, need to recruit cooperative young patriotic men and women to die in their stead. Perhaps the leaders and their cohorts should be the first to go and the last to send.

In the US today, whatever your political and religious preference, be careful in what you believe to be true and who you choose to follow . . . you may find that you are as weak-minded as the politician's believe, are being a little to generous in your support and are, in fact, being screwed.

Friday, March 9, 2012

How True


Quote:

"Writing is a socially acceptable form of schizophrenia."

 

  ~E.L. Doctorow

Sunday, March 4, 2012

A Law to Live By . . .

Separating fiction from non-fiction often seems problematical to me but, in Drunken Duck, I claim a fiction even though most of the characters 'somewhat' existed (or still exist) and the stories, embellished and exaggerated from a particular point of view, are true . . . to a point. From Paddy's childhood (the lead character) the stories have very little fiction in them, the fiction increasing and decreasing as the various stories unfold later in Japan, the Philippines, Hong Kong, Singapore, and certainly Vietnam.

The use of language, as both great emancipator and jailor, defines our view of what we know as the human condition or true. In fictional writing a deadly non-fiction raises its pretty little head suggesting what everyone already intuitively understands . . . your view of life depends on what you've been taught  by a particular system of beliefs. A persons acceptance and acquiescence of belief-manipulation, by family, neighborhood, educational and news dissemination systems, or even actor and comedian (i.e., popular culture), amazes me. As for the rebel, they are even more accepting, and foolish than the conformist.

Anomalies abound in the telling of fiction and non-fiction but, “the claim of truth” in non-fiction, including biography, religion, science, jurisprudence, and political economy, all espoused as 'the truth' often-times lead to defining laws-to-live-by making individuals and groups of citizens into true believers. Beware of those espousing their definitions of a Higher Power, Political Correctness, or those proclaiming, dare I say it, the Common Good. Here's a Law to Live by: the more you believe them, the less you should. Never trust the head-lemming, including the apologists which surround them and serve for power, money, and self-glory. Try not to be a lemming who follows your other-taught nature-nurture paradigm to the edge of the cliff, unless of course you are not afraid of heights, are an excellent swimmer, and understand what false assumptions you have been taught and hold dear to your little lemming heart . . . or surely you will drown if you don't break your neck during your leap of faith.

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Psychology

A must read for all
Is Psychology What Psychologists Do? No. (Title of my Master's Thesis)

The thesis was based on Szasz's The Myth of Mental Illness, Foucault's Madness and Civilization, and Wittgenstein's the Tractatus and Philosophical Investigations. I claimed that Psychology fell beyond the limits of language and, as such, it fell into the realm of a religion (i.e., under the guise of Humanism) at best and tyrannical-political nonsense at worst. I presented this paper at the Western Psychological Association meeting in San Francisco and it was of interest to most and not well received by some . . . it was controversial for its time.
by Ronald Dawson 

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Kabuki Theater

An early poster
depicting Danjuro



The Japanese take their Kabuki theater seriously. On the 19th day of the second lunar month 1704, while Danjuro was appearing at the Ichimura-za theatre in the role of Sato Tadanobu in Watamashi Junidan, he was stabbed to death on stage by the actor Ikushima Hanroku. Hanroku’s motive is unknown. Danjuro was forty-five years old.

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Five Senses


Women are like a
Bouquet of many Colors
Each hue, size, and form pleasing
Detect their sweet fragrance
Taste their honeyed essence
Hear their gentle whispers
Touch their dream-like soft petals
Watch them Blossom.
by Ronald Dawson

Friday, February 17, 2012

From Drunken Duck . . . Excerpt . . . Chapter 8: Drunken Cat

Fifty Kilometers Southwest of Hue,
The Republic of Vietnam, March 8, 1966

Just before twilight, the rain paused. A single ray of penetrating sunshine broke through the dark gray water swollen clouds swirling above illuminating the edge of the shadowed murky green forest below. A reflection of changing life revealed as an afterthought onto death as the beam of sunshine destined not to alter or threaten change, but to fulfill history’s eternal memory and implement destiny bathed Hualing in a halo of light. Hualing hesitated before dropping flush to the ground.

“Lock and load.”

In ritual often practiced and effortlessly remembered, twenty-year old Marine Staff Sergeant Arturo Siqueiros, tapped the cartridge clip on his helmet three times, slammed it home into the magazine’s chamber of his M-16 assault rifle. Clicking the safety off his rifle, he set his weapon on full automatic.

Twenty-year old Special Forces SEAL Petty Officer First Class, P.F. Harrington, in a good-natured show of a brother-in-arms, chuckled, reached over, and tapped his cartridge clip thrice on Arturo’s helmet. He slammed the cartridge clip home into the magazine’s chamber of his specially modified M-16 rifle and dialed four clicks on his scope, each click one mil equal to one-hundred yards, the tree line approximately three-hundred-sixty meters in the distance. Acquired for his sniper’s work, modifications on the rifle included a longer barrel providing greater range to target and improvements regarding accuracy, jamming, and overheating. He took his rifle off safety and set his weapon on semi-automatic, three-burst mode. P.F. teased his old friend. “Seriously, when I think about it, I didn’t know the Maine Corps made a helmet so big it would qualify as the Eighth Wonder of the World.

Arturo grimaced, responding sarcastically, “The eighth wonder is being overrun once on my first tour of duty in-country, I still volunteered for a second tour, and here I am listening to a jackass who’s a bigger fool than I am about to be overrun again.”


“Here we go again, first a drunken duck yesterday, now an intoxicated cat today, sporting a Latin name, for Christ’s sake, what’s next?” Arturo muttered, “You’ve been the one drinking, amigo.
“Hey, I heard that. I never drink and drive or drink and kill. I take a wee-nip of the Irish when I’m going to make love to a young maiden to overcome my natural shyness and other charming inhibitions, or is it her inhibitions I want to overcome. Never mind, I digress. Let me continue my most intimate and almost true story.”

Arturo mused to himself, out-loud, in a speculative way, “Let me think. If I shoot this braying mule now, I could stop him from telling me another of his estúpido stories.”

Undeterred, Patrick explained, “Every morning, after a hot night of passionate unbelievable non-stop sex with me, she would get up, put her see-through nightie back on her remarkable body, and fix us both a cuppa hot Chinese Oolong tea with a double-shot of Irish whiskey. This became a tradition, a celebration of the conjoining of cultures, if you get my drift.”

Arturo crossed himself and prayed. “Dear God, please save me from another of my friend’s long-winded embellished far-fetched stories, Amen.”

“Quit your praying. This should be a breath of fresh air for someone like you.”

Arturo sighed. “Get on with your dumbass story, already.”

“Anyway, she served the Oolong tea with her nice petite soft, yet somehow still firm hot Chinese buns covered in delicious melted vanilla icing. She loved vanilla icing. She would lovingly allow me to spread it all over her delicious buns with a spoon. She would lick my spoon and I would lick the bowl and her buns, too. I digress once again with sweet memories. She would serve me my tea and buns in a bouncy bed, really a futon but we seemed to bounce anyway. Centering her petite body on top of me, she would straddle me, grasping me tighter than you’d ever hope to imagine, like some Texas cowgirl about to ride a raging bull.”


He paused, giving Arturo a chance to imagine such a scene. “Mind you, my salivating friend; she attempted this act of daring-do without her usual use of a rope, saddle, spurs, or gripping me with her hands. When I say grasp, I mean grasp me like a vise between her legs. As I casually sipped my Chinese-Oolong-Irish tea, enjoyed one or two of her hot buns, licked off the icing first, she would giddy-up on me and, believe me, it lasted longer than an eight-second bull ride. Did I tell you her buns were tasty, her grasp amazing?”

“Yes, you may have mentioned her tasty buns and tight grasp, or it may have been another story of yours that I remember. I’m finding all this confusing and very hard to believe.”

“You always play the cynic, Arty-me-lad. Speaking of being hard, she was quite a vision, straddled on top of me thrashing about in complete uncontrollable frenzied ecstasy, with her sheer nightie on, balancing a steaming hot cuppa tea in one hand and one of her nice hot Chinese buns dripping with icing in the other. She never spilled a drop of tea on me, but the icing from her hot buns got all over everything and I mean everything. Did I tell you she was a most excellent and accomplished rider?”

“I’m going to regret asking this. What happened to her cat?”

“Don’t get your panties all in a bunch. I was coming to the interesting part concerning the cat. After an hour or three she would get up off the top of me more than satisfied, I can assure you. She’d lick off any excess icing, then go to the front door in her sheer black silk short lace nightie, no bra or panties on underneath, a visual treat, fling the door wide open, try to get her exhausted drunken little pussy to come home after a night on the town, and call out, Here I Am, Here I Am.”

Arturo interrupted. “I can only imagine such a vision,”

“Yes,” Patrick continued, “imagination is a wonderful thing, even if such a vision is slightly beyond your ability to comprehend. Her neighbors thought she was crazy, but they sure enjoyed the view.”
“I bet. A lovely vision, I’m sure. What happened to the cat, already?”

“To tell the truth, the cat seemed to be always drunk, blasted, whacked, wasted, as you Mexicans say, el blotto. I’m not a poet, but as a poet might write, I AM the cat, appeared to me, from my own experience and observations, always tight, day or night. My girlfriend thought it my fault, not because I stroked her petite little pussy, or gave her fur a nice rubdown—you can only visualize in your dreams how I made her pussy purr—the problem being, I gave her cat a wee-sip of Irish whiskey. Her cat started demanding more and more. You know what they say, once a pussy gets a wee-taste of the Irish, there’s nothing else will ever satisfy a pussy as much ever again.”


Arturo mused, “I’ve heard that old Irish legend before, from you. I’ve only ever heard you make such a claim.”

“Quit interrupting, Artemus-old-bean, you’re the one asking with such a perverted interest in what may have happened to my girlfriend’s cat.”

“Call me old-bean again, and I will shoot you.”

“I’m referring to Boston baked beans, not refried beans or Mexican jumping beans, amigo, don’t be so sensitive. Anyone would think you’ve never been breast-fed. To continue my tragic story, one day I Am did not come home, and my girlfriend kept calling for her cat to no avail. She went up to her neighbors and complete strangers, still in her nightie, asking, and I quote, “Have you seen my drunken little pussy lately?”

“Did her neighbors help find her cat?”

“Her neighbors were astounded. The men-folk were happily amazed. Charitably, they wanted to help search for her lost cat. The women, however, were indignant. You know how unreasonable women can be. They advised their men-folk it was none of their business where their neighbor’s cat strayed, and they should look after their own stay-at-home pussies if they knew what was good for them.”

“Sound advice, I’m sure. Now, could you tell me what happened to her drunken cat, dimwit?

“It wasn’t Dimwit the Cat her feline was aptly named I Am. This is pure intellectual speculation, but her cat may have run off with a tomcat or I Am could have been run-over by a tank driven by a dumbass Marine Staff Sergeant. Speculation aside, my girlfriend found her cat, picked the cat over me, and decided to seek psychological counseling for her cat, blaming me personally for all her pussy’s shenanigans. She took her drunken Siamese cat, along with her Chinese hot buns, and disappeared into thin air.”

“A true wonder some girl would abandon you, her cat would need psychological help from your emotional and physical abuse, and they would both disappear into thin air.”

“Yes, it is rather tragic. I never heard from my girlfriend or her drunken cat since. I promised myself I’ll never give up my search, if I have to search in every bar in Southeast Asia I’m going to find my lost girlfriend with her intoxicated little pussy.”

“Yes, so tragic. I feel sorry for you. You’re pathetic, and her neighbors must be heartsick, especially the men.”

“Thanks, I feel sorry for myself and I’ll tell her neighbors, especially the men-folk, you send them your condolences. The sad part of my story, the moral of my story if you will, is what I’ll miss every day and night of my life. What I genuinely miss are my girlfriend’s . . .”

Arturo interrupted him. “Wait, let me guess. What you truly miss are your girlfriend’s hot buns dripping with sweet vanilla icing and her always tight little pussy.”

Incredulous, Patrick asked, “How did you know?”

“How could I not know? Is everything with you food and women?”

“Aha! Don’t forget the Chinese Oolong tea spiked with Irish whiskey.”

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Sunset

Chandler, Arizona . . . 2012

This was taken at sunset from my patio-porch in Chandler, Arizona.

Palm trees and evergreen pine trees surrounding the lake.

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Art as a Reflection of Life

William Faulkner

"The aim of every artist is to arrest motion, which is life, by artificial means and hold it fixed so that a hundred years later, when a stranger looks at it, it moves again since it is life."  by William Faulkner

Did you know that the title of The Sound and the Fury by Faulkner was derived from a line in Shakespeare's Macbeth?

The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage
And then is heard no more. It is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury
 
 Signifying nothing. 

Macbeth (Act 5, Scene 5, lines 17-28)




I love the idea of the intimacies of various art forms and cultures mixing to produce an experience. My favorite "Macbeth" based movie is Throne of Blood,  Macbeth portrayed as a samurai in feudal Japan in director Akira Kurosawa's classic adaptation of the Shakespearean tragedy. I love the prophecy and implicit conundrum . . . When trees start to move, you know that things are bad.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Sometimes Authorship Takes Courage


"In this profoundly affecting memoir Ayaan Hirsi Ali tells her astonishing life story, from her traditional Muslim childhood in Somalia, Saudi Arabia, and Kenya, to her intellectual awakening and activism in the Netherlands, and her current life under armed guard in the West." (Amazon Review)

Infidel is a must read given the so-called 'Arab Spring' (should read . . . Fundamental Muslim Arab Spring) taking place in Egypt and other Middle-Eastern countries with the resulting, largely unreported, consequences.  In the US we are discussing how to stop the Syrian regime from killing its citizens while in places like the Sudan and the recent creation of South Sudan many more thousands of people (including Christians) were slaughtered before the split and are continually being slaughtered now as the world looks on and the genocide goes largely unreported. We have become such hypocrites in the US, it is startling.

Sunday, February 12, 2012

Fireworks (unedited)

Fireworks as a young woman looks skyward in amazement waves of rocking
bursts flowers blossoming revealing Singapore’s luminous lovely night.
Fireworks as a young soldier looks skyward  in astonishment waves of shocking
explosions lighten then shroud  Saigon's glowing deadly twilight.

The mimicry of a canon resounding she hears echoes the sound of life’s sharing
a flash of color a flower opens the vibration colliding with the night’s loving darkness.
The booming of a mortar  he hears echoes sound of death’s uncaring
a blast of heat a bright explosion colliding with the night’s hateful starkness.
Love fills the young woman’s palpitating heart each flower bursts into a lovely nesting
rumbling abounds she feels rolling sounds and sees skies heavenly light.
Fear fills the young soldier’s quick-racing heart each flash bursts into a lethal cresting
rumbling blasts he feels rolling sounds and sees skies hellish delight.

The beginning of desire wells-up as a bouquet of flowers reveal within her breast
surprise and wonder while she rejoices and in a beautiful display of fireworks, sees life.
The ending of all want fades away as shrapnel sinks deeply within-beneath his chest
disbelief and regret while he despairs and in a hostile display of fireworks, sees death.

by Ronald Dawson

Friday, February 10, 2012

Chicken Feathers and Garlic Skin

Well I can't speak, write, or think in Chinese, but a common expression in Chinese captures not only my writing frustrations, but my personal ones, as well . . . 鸡毛蒜皮 Chicken Feathers and Garlic Skin is a Diary (an exposé) of a Chinese Garment Factory Girl (sweatshop worker) on Saipan. It's how I feel about present circumstances: strong-willed people will eventually overcome circumstances and win in the end. People overcome those that judge others as "less than," but why in every job does there have to be one or more of "those?" It is like the law of the workplace or human nature that when a person that partially-subconsciously detests their own worth, finding themselves in a position of power, want to demean others. There is always "at least one" pathetic individual that takes the joy out of life, learning, working including writing or working at some other menial job while achieving success.   

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Expressions of Haiku

Old-style eatery in Sapporo, Japan  



I've been thinking lately about the time I spent three days in Sapporo, Northern Japan (1963) in icy-cold snows of winter. I was only eighteen, but well read, and understood some Japanese culture including Haiku a Japanese lyric verse form having three non-rhymed lines of five, seven, and five syllables, traditionally invoking an aspect of nature.

An hour after going port-side I walked into an eatery and saw a beautiful woman reading a book of Haiku, w/English translations. I ordered some Om-rice (spicy-rice encased in an egg omelet) with some hot sake. Eating and drinking quickly, before leaving I composed the following Haiku on a napkin which I handed to her . . .

With half of a heart
A fragmented soul seeks death
In Winter’s white snow.

Without missing a beat, she looked at me and quietly replied . . .

“Write of feelings, smart
Haiku coldly beautiful
Eat too fast, stupid.”
Together we laughed. We struck up a conversation and she spent three days showing me around the city introducing me to her friends, family, and Japanese culture. I've never forgotten this woman's incredible beauty, her friendly spirit toward a foreign stranger, a sailor at that, and her delightful quickness of wit. Of course I fell madly in love with her and kept the pictures we had taken together until I was twenty-two, just married, and my first wife threw them out.

Wednesday, February 8, 2012


Amy Tan's The Joy Luck Club
is a masterpiece both as a novel and a movie.

Four older women, all Chinese immigrants living in San Francisco meet regularly to eat, tell stories, and play mahjong. Each woman has an adult Chinese-American daughter. The stories reveal the hidden pasts of the older women as Tan explores cultural conflict and the relationships between mothers and daughters. The book is structured as a series told from the perspectives of the different women.

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

On War, Erotic Allusions, and Other Cliches

No ducks were harmed during the writing of the novel or this blog.

Critics and other ne’er do wells often warn writers against over-use of erotic allusions, cultural stereotyping, and political incorrectness. Sorry, when used with grace, modest abandon, and a slight twist, I am a sucker (cliché) for exposed lust-filled thoughts (erotic allusions), tearful heroines (gender specific language), maudlin love scenes (come on, keep it real) and semi-heroic bad-boy figures (sexiness and a challenge for all women to tame) often portrayed in Literature and Art.

One of my favorite movies, perhaps clichéd, based on a true-story, is Taking Chance. Man or woman, if you do not cry while watching this story, check yourself for a heartbeat, you may be beyond redemption. As we know, redemption is a must 99.9% of the time.

Another of my favorite movies is Apocalypse Now. Talk about political incorrectness: the hateful Vietnam War, the incorrectness of "I love the smell of napalm in the morning," or lusting after Playboy Bunnies in Vietnam . . . these scenes are definitely not worthy of political correctness although I personally embrace them myself. As for the slaughtering of innocents, all I can say is thank God for all the Politically Correct politicians we had and have (only the names have changed) in Washington D.C., Hanoi, and other centers of political power.


Actress Teresa Denton . . . Susan
in Forrest Gump
Being a romantic, one of my favorite “character-characters” of all time, most beloved to me, is Lt. Dan’s (actor Gary Sinese), for story-line purposes, modestly sweet Asian fiancée Susan (cultural stereotyping) seen in the movie, Forrest Gump. If I remember correctly, she says two words, “Hello Forrest,” and has a three-second close-up with ten seconds of screen time. Think about her character, within the context of the story, and if you are a romantic, you will instantly fall in love with her, as I did.

The hope for me, besides the dual purposes of entertainment and escapism, is that you, Dear Reader, will find a character in Drunken Duck that you will fall in love with, too.

Thursday, January 26, 2012

What is " The Secret?" A Fairytale

I was asked by a young lady once "What is the Secret to love, life, and happiness?" Without thinking I blurted out, "A window seat." She looked at me strangely and I regret that I did not explain to her what I was thinking at that very moment and why my answer made perfect sense. Let me explain. "The Secret" is a book about achieving happiness and success basically by using the power of positive thinking whatever phrases and techniques espoused by its author or interpreted by the reader. Please, you true believers, don't get angry because if you are reading my blog I'm already very attracted to you for your intellect and adherence to the principle of the "Law of Attraction" as espoused in "The Secret." If you follow this 'law' religiously you are a positive person which brings to my mind . . . being at least 50% pessimistic, my half-full glass of liquids often half-empty . . .  my studies in Psychology. One thing I studied was Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs: 1. Physiological Needs, 2. Safety Needs, 3. Needs of Love, Affection, Belonging, 4. Needs for Esteem, and 5. a Need for Self-Actualization 
I knew then, as I know now, that a more accurate point of view, other than Maslow's Needs or The Law of Attraction would be the 'Law of the Window Seat.'
 
Let's put aside such foolish needs as water, food, energy, air, and suitable living conditions as being necessary for life, happiness and success. I must admit, however, it's hard to be happy, successful, or sexually aroused if you're dead. While avoiding thoughts about the after-life, I became enmeshed in an intellectually train of thought mixed with a wee-bit of biotic and abiotic factors or sex. Biotic Factors defined, meaning of or related to life, such as plants, animals, fungi, protists and bacteria which are all biotic or living factors and abiotic factors defined, meaning nonliving chemical reactions or sometimes the term is related to factors that affect living organisms such as habitat, weather, political economy, etc. Sex needs no definition unless you are President Clinton testifying before Congress.
 
It just so happened that the young lady that asked me about the secret I was picking up at a hotel for a business meeting and in her room was a two-foot wide window sill (more like a window seat) stretching the length of a huge picture-window overlooking a panoramic view of the city of Seattle. Another contributing factor is that the Space Needle in the near distance looked somewhat like a phallic symbol. At that moment I felt "the Secret"of my personal happiness and success would be making love to her on that window seat. Don't blame me for such a fairytale like thought  . . . she was an incredibly beautiful Chinese woman with a magnificent intellect after-all . . . as I think back about what life would have been like with her if I had written that best selling book about happiness called "The Secret," better titled "The Window Seat" and revealed my secret yearning for her.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Duck Cliches

Easy as duck soup, you're a sitting duck, as a duck takes to water, you're one dead duck, duck and cover, let's duck out, get you're ducks in a row, he's a lame duck, like water off a duck's back, Lord love a duck! and, my favorite . . . Fine weather if you're a duck!

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

The Question

Vivian Stanshall, an original

Quote from Stanshall:

"Why Can't I Be Different and Original . . . 
Like Everybody Else?"

Stanshall was a musician, songwriter, singer, comic, broadcaster (BBC radio), painter, poet, and writer.


Thursday, January 5, 2012

Heavenly

Audry Hepburn in "A Nun's Story"
Quote:

"The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen from in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides. The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mode but the true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul. It is the caring that she lovingly gives the passion that she shows. The beauty of a woman grows with the passing years." — Audrey Hepburn

Monday, December 5, 2011

the Paris Review, 1977

KURT VONNEGUT
As Vonnegut once wrote:

"I had a friend who was a heavy drinker. If somebody asked him if he’d been drunk the night before, he would always answer offhandedly, “Oh, I imagine.” I’ve always liked that answer. It acknowledges life as a dream."

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Misconceptions

I recently read an article about Yuri Gagarian, the cosmonaut, the first man in space. Some claim he was not the first, but the first to come back from Space, alive. Personally, I have no idea what version is true. I "know" that there are many misconceptions out there . . . fiction taken as fact. Or, at the very least, I know I have some misconceptions deeply ingrained within my personal belief system.

Sputnik I
Misconception #1. I saw Sputnik I flying overhead when I was a youngster. I thought at the time how amazing that I could see such a small object orbiting in Space. I held this misconception from then until a few months ago. I was researching material for a book when I discovered a scientific article that Sputnik was to small to see and what people saw was the much larger rocket booster following Sputnik in space orbit. Now that makes more sense, yet I would have sworn, and bet all I was worth, that I "knew" beyond any doubt whatsoever, that I saw Sputnik I. Now, as a writer of fiction, I made the claim that my lead character in Drunken Duck actually saw Sputnik, a mistake in historical fact. 

A reader wrote me, he didn't think an M-16 would be used as a sniper's rifle in Vietnam, it more than likely would have been an M-40 with a star-light scope. I think as a writer of fiction it is important to get your "facts" straight wherever possible. Yet, it is not as essential as when writing non-fiction or a biography, or reporting the news. In the movie Titanic, viewers, critics, and the like, have identified over two-thousand "mistakes" that James Cameron made, even though I'm sure James wanted as many "facts"  and the illusion of the cinematographic retelling of Titanic to reflect the inexactitude of "historical truth."  The movie was said to have cost 200 million to make and grossed over 1.8 billion dollars in world-wide sales. So whatever, Mr. Cameron's limitations or "mistakes" he certainly knows how to capture the imagination of the movie-going public and sell tickets. When it comes to writing a Biography or reporting the news, especially the political news, separating fact from fiction is almost impossible.

Misconception #2. Recently doing research, this time on demographics, I discovered that I was not classified in the "Baby Boom Generation" (the first Boomer being born one-second into Jan. of 1946). I was born in May of '45, therefore technically I'm one of the last of my parents generation, "The Traditional Generation" or, taking Brokaw's terminology which I like much better, one of the last of the "Greatest Generation."


Excuse me while I say, "Damn!" and "Yippee!" Damn and Yippee because I always thought of my self as somewhat ill at ease as a "Baby Boomer," babies cry and boomers seem to be so vast in their numbers that one is lost in the madding throng. I never could quite relate to the "characteristics" attributed to that generation but, being a part of my parent's generation seems just plain weird. Perhaps I'm in between both generations and somewhat historically and culturally, schizophrenic.

Then, as a culturally confused person, I thought how many of my dearest held beliefs and convictions about love, life, Country, and the like, are actually misconceptions. Thankfully I'm only a writer of fiction and not a politician, historian, or head lemming, leading other lemmings over the cliff, while claiming truth. Just an after-thought . . .  I wonder if what I think as a fact about lemmings is a misconception, too?

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Prologue to the Novel, Drunken Duck

Fifty Kilometers Southwest of Hue, 
The Republic of Vietnam, March 7, 1966

Five-year-old Lê Anh Trinh, a Chinese-Vietnamese girl, lifted her pet duck and concentrated as she held the duck’s neck firmly, turning its head toward the soldier with the camera. The duck having little choice but to pose quacked away loudly in protest until stifled.


Fortunately, both duck and girl would grow up protected by those who loved them, would have many suitors flock about, and have little ducklings or children of their own. One dressed in white feathers, the other wore a white dress with broad swaths of zebra-like vertical and diagonal black and white stripes, with a bow tied in front. Both had recently bathed and, being playful young scamps, would remain squeaky clean if only for the next few moments.


Trinh’s cleanliness, her dress, and neatly trimmed vigorously brushed hair, told of a special occasion. Her mama and her family, except her twin brothers and eldest sister, were going on a journey to Saigon, a faraway city. Although uneasy about leaving the village of her birth, leaving her twin brothers and sister behind, her excitement overcame her unease.


She showed off her pretty dress, along with her pet duck, to the two foreign soldiers. One of the two soldiers standing before her had given her and four of her seven siblings some Tootsie Roll Pops, hard-candy sweets with a chewy chocolaty surprise inside. The candy came on a stick wrapped in cherry-red colored crinkly paper.


Her fourteen-year-old twin brothers, in the civilian militia under the command of a provincial chief, were across the compound guarding the west wall and did not get any candy treats.


Her eighteen-year-old sister, Lê Thi Thu-Lam, refused any candy and refused to go with the family as she declared her intention to stay and fight alongside her brothers when the soldiers from the North attacked.


Trinh, a brave girl and not afraid, very much, knew everyone in her village, except she and Thu-Lam, seemed to fear the ghost soldier, the rumored eater of hearts, with the strange grayish-blue eyes, the giver of candy. Trinh knew the rumor could not possibly be true, she hoped.


The ghost soldier, called by Trinh’s Chinese grandpapa the guai soldier, had told her sister she must leave. When her sister boldly defied the guai soldier by sticking her tongue out at him, shaking her head ‘no’ and walking away haughtily in a huff, shouting, “I no go,” the guai soldier did not strike her dead and eat her heart for her insolent disobedience, but sighed, laughed quietly, shook his head ‘no’ in return and asked, “Wanna bet?”


She thought her sister liked him in spite of his demand that she leave. Trinh liked him even before he gave her the candy. When she looked at him closely, peered into his eyes, his eyes were not scary, but gentle and kind. She felt safe in his presence.
***


Arturo, a Marine Corps Staff Sergeant, a giant of a man, knelt down, and snapped a picture of the girl and her pet duck with his Polaroid instant camera.


Amused at her determination to get the duck to pose, he smiled. “Her duck reminds me of you, always being hugged by a beautiful girl, quacking away loudly in protest while refusing to cooperate.”


Patrick, a Navy SEAL, tossed Arturo a Tootsie Pop, and responded, “Have you ever tasted drunken duck?”


“Don’t start with the Irish blarney. We don’t have time for any of your exaggerated stories or your attempts to make sense out of your senseless nonsense. I know I’m going to regret this, what’s drunken duck?”

“When it comes to food, my little one, I knew you couldn’t resist asking. Do you have a tapeworm for a pet? Never mind. It’s a yummy Chinese dish. You take a scallion, slice it into one-inch sections with your bayonet, crush some garlic with the butt of your rifle, place the scallion with the garlic in a large heavy pot or we could use your one-of-its-kind gigantic, Believe It or Not Ripley’s, enormous sized helmet.”


Arturo, retrieving an old childhood habit, growled.


Patrick lowered his voice so as not to frighten the duck or the girl in case they understood Americanized-English. “You slit the duck’s throat, chop its head and feet off, de-feather and de-gut the bird, wipe the duck inside and out with a clean damp skivvy shirt. I’ll loan you one since I’m sure none of your skivvies are clean.”


Receiving no response, disappointingly not even a growl, he continued. “Light some C-4, fill your helmet with water from a canteen, and bring it to a boil. Toss it, the duck not the skivvy shirt, into the helmet, add some salt and pepper, bring the water to a boil again, and then simmer, covered for forty-five minutes. Drain the duck, let it cool, dry it thoroughly, then refrigerate covered overnight. The next day quarter the duck, place the pieces in a glass container, and pour in a couple of cups of fine sherry, or home-brewed rice wine or, in your indiscriminate lack of taste, some fiery tequila. Cover, then refrigerate for a week.”


Arturo interrupted. “If you substitute mescal for tequila, it prevents worms. In Tijuana, I ate a drunken worm pickled in a bottle of potent mescal and I haven’t had any worms since.”


“You don’t need mescal to eliminate worms and parasites just eat some rice-wine soaked com ruou sprinkled with aromatic delicious Vietnamese cinnamon on it for flavor, but quit interrupting with a brainless story about an intoxicated worm. No one, especially yours truly, wants to hear about your bizarre eating and drinking habits.”


Having scored a point, Arturo smiled, and then inquired, “Where do you get Vietnamese cinnamon? I’ve never heard of it.”


“Vietnamese cinnamon is the best tasting cinnamon in the world. Up in North Vietnam, by the Chinese border, close to the mountain areas you can strip the bark off cinnamon trees and eat the fresh, soft sweet bark like candy, or you can use it in soups, stews, breads, or desserts. It’s similar to spicy Red Hots candy only more natural and flavorful.”


“When were you up there?”


“None of your business but quit interrupting, back to the subject at hand. If you’re alive after the week is up, drain the duck, and then chop the duck up, including the bones, into bite-size pieces. Serve it chilled, with some piss-warm beer if you’re a gourmand like you or with a slightly chilled white wine, preferably a Chardonnay with smooth buttery oak overtones and a hint of vanilla if you’re a gourmet like me.”


Arturo lowered his voice. “We can have duck burritos, duck tacos, duck with frijoles, duck Irish stew, or duck whatever. Rice wine is plentiful. We may be able to find some beer, but where are we going to procure a refrigerator here in this godforsaken land, hombre?”


Whispering back, he answered, “I’m ashamed of you, Artie, wanting to eat this poor girl’s little duckling. If you were a pet lover or had any feelings for children, you would have asked me, Patrick, old salt, where are we going to find a duck?”


“Our reunion is less than eight hours old Patrick, old salt, and I haven’t seen you in over three years, since we were seventeen, and you’re already starting to piss me off. Did you call in the cavalry?”


“Yeah, I called in the choppers alright. Captain Thompson evidently is the only one who hasn’t heard the order there will be no further evacuations. The Captain assured me he’ll be here in a few minutes before his radio gets fixed. I told him to fly in from the south. Most of the villagers, along with some of the more intelligent chicken-hearted militia, have already escaped traveling south by southwest. He’ll fly out this girl and her family, including the duck.”


“If Thompson’s radio isn’t working, how are you or the Captain going to explain to the brass how you were able to call him in, in the first place, amigo?”


“Smoke signals, carrier pigeons, sign language, drums, ESP, take your pick. Does it matter? All I know is this girl along with her family and a few others are leaving this valley of death.”


“So you think saving a few people is going to somehow redeem your whole sorry life?”


“Redemption is for the innocent like this young girl or a not so innocent true-believer like you. To use a cliché, my pea-brained little friend, redemption, as is beauty, is in the eyes of the beholder.”


“Not so, amigo. Redemption, for eternity, is in the eyes of God. Remember, there are no atheists in foxholes, hombre.”


“How profound, that sounds like a line right out of a WW2 movie, but can I ask you something? Do communist guerillas dig holes?”


Without letting his childhood friend answer, he continued. “The answer is their Goddamn tunnels are everywhere. However, I’ll have to remember to feature your profundity in my memoirs. Even better, you can chisel it on my gravestone with your bayonet in an attempt to fool the angels.”


Arturo mumbled under his breath, “I just might do that.”


“I heard that. Anyway, it’s too late for me Artie-me-lad and if I can help save a few lives, what the hell, why not?”


“Yeah, it never hurts if one of those lives saved happens to be a young lady you may want to visit in Saigon in the future, like this girl’s big sister.”


“What future? Anyway, the important thing is I’m saving the duck from a hot bath and a hangover, and I’m saving you from a heart attack. There’s a lot of fat in a duck. I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but you’re a wee-bit pudgy. You definitely need to go on a diet. If you had your way, you and this possible drunken duck would be partaking in some bizarre suicide pact.”


“Drunken duck my ass.”


“Quit swearing in front of the kid, Artemus. Someday, if you behave yourself, or you should live so long, before you buy the farm, say adios into the sunset, or bite the bullet, I’ll tell you a mostly true story of a young lady who owned a drunken cat.”


“I can’t wait. I suppose you think when you say Goddamn or hell you’re not swearing?”


“Swearing is in the ears of the beholder my overly religious friend.”


Arturo replied, “Do you always have to speak about life in clichés? You’re always pretending the stories you weave are true, and can’t seem to live unless you have the last word.”


“A tautological truism, life as cliché is cliché. On principle, my stories have an element of truth, true or not and in our line of work Sergeant, the last word always ends with a Hallelujah-Amen, or a scream.”


The ghostly picture image appeared and took form on the Polaroid film as Arturo responded, “Tautological truisms are self evident and should go without saying. Hallelujah Amen is two words and a scream isn’t exactly a word dumb-dumb, another three points for me. Here, take this picture. This little girl reminds me of Sachi.”


“Tres times a touché mate. You’re a regular portrait taking, analytical, word parsing Mexican-American Einstein. Here, let me take a look.”


“Take it. You can have it as a keepsake.”


The picture of the little girl did remind him of Sachi his first girlfriend from kindergarten class. Wanting no reminders or keepsakes, his life lived present tense, not past, or future, he gave the picture to Trinh.


“Listen Patrick, I hear Thompson’s chopper coming.”


He suggested Arturo go over to the west wall, retrieve the little girl’s teenage brothers, and order them to leave on the arriving chopper whether the provincial chief, the newly appointed Territorial’s commander, agreed or not.


“What a good idea. I always knew you were a teary-eyed bleeding-heart softy.” Deceptively agile for a large man, Arturo turned and swiftly jogged off on his mission as Patrick gently scooped up the little girl and her duck within his powerfully strong gentle arms.


“Okay, time to go, sweetie. Let’s find your Mama and family.” The little girl snuggled within his arms. She laid her head on his shoulder and giggled when he tickled her tummy, accompanied by a loving “quack.”


After locating the girl’s mama and siblings, including Thu-Lam, he gave the young girl with her duck over to her mother.


Thu-Lam, barefoot, wearing white cotton loose-fitting pants with a matching blouse, a peasant’s uniform called an Ao ba-ba and conical hat called a non-la, tried to run, but he swiftly caught her, tossed her over his shoulder with ease, and carried her, as she struggled mightily, kicking-angrily, to the landing zone. This maneuver reminded him of a scene from the western movie The Magnificent Seven without the use of a horse.


Sighing wearily, he chastised his captive. “Don’t get your panties all in a bunch, my little flower, your whole family is leaving with you.”


Swatting her butt in an attempt to settle her down, he discovered, under her thin cotton bottoms, she wasn’t wearing panties. Sighing, a deeper sigh, he swatted her butt once more and told her and his overly active imaginative libido to “behave.”


The UH-1 Iroquois chopper came in fast, flying in from the south, swooped down from above with a deafening roar, spewed up a muddy wet-fog of debris, and landed. They put their charges on board, along with half dozen other villagers as Arturo shouted over the chopper’s reverberating blades, “Mission accomplished!”


Patrick looked at the Lê family, the siblings, the smiling-nervously young girl with her quacking duck, her older sister crying as she embraced her brothers, and their tearful mama. His own fate meaningless, he nevertheless, as a carryover from his childhood, remained a sucker for a woman in tears, let alone two women, a loving mama and her beautiful daughter. He stared directly into the deep-brown moist eyes of Thu-Lam, their hearts touched. Their eyes seem to pierce the other’s soul. He felt relief for the Lê family and saddened that the possibility of a love for Thu-Lam, a love that might have been, was now lost.


The helicopter rose into the air, hovered for a brief moment like a giant green praying mantis searching for prey, spewed out its venom briefly from two 60D machine guns, then flew away safely on the updrafts of its whirling wings, under the protection of the wind gods of war. A family rescued by Captain Hugh Thompson and crew, by Marine Corps Staff Sergeant Arturo Siqueiros, and by Navy Petty Officer First Class P.F. Harrington.


Patrick nodded to his boyhood friend and uttered a prayer, “Deo volente, media vita in morte sumus. Amen.”


“What does that mean, hombre?”


“God willing, in the midst of our lives we die. So be it.”


Arturo opined, “There are worse things than dying, hombre.”


Death, no stranger, a visitor since childhood, the ghost soldier responded, “Yes, I know, amigo, like living.”

The chopper flew west into the diminishing sun’s setting rays before sharply veering south. Dark-gray storm clouds formed, merged, and overwhelmed the sun’s translucent fading blood-red light. The murky-green world of the rainforest closed in as the ominous sky opened fulfilling its promise, raindrops splattering over the muddied rice paddies obscuring shadowy movements in the forest beyond. The earth began to cleanse and renew.


Eerily silent except for the sound of splashing raindrops and the beat of retreating helicopter blades, echoes of screams would go unheard until twilights next evening. As darkness fell, death approached. The helicopter escaped into the night.